reflections

ive been gone a while. sorry. life has been crazy. but i'm going to be here more often. promise. i got my letter to say that i was approved by the boa to participate in graduation activities this may! i'm graduating in may, this may!!! i cant beleive it. i'm shocked that i have been in college for 4 years. ive come so far. i have changed so much. so much around me has changed. good and bad. but all of them will turn out for the good in God's timing. God is so faithful i can't even begin to describe it. i can't wait for my internship this summer hopefully at 1st. i cant' wait to pour out my time and dreams into these children.i can't wait to teach them all about Jesus. i'm so excited to see all the differences between the iowa and southern missouri districts. i just cant wait. i'm so excited to get out into the world and do something for the kingdom. i can't wait to have my own ministry, where its me and God and thats only the beginning of the story......

im taking 21 credits this semester, working 13 hrs, working for a prof 2-3 hrs a week, designing the yearbook, oh and planning that thing called a wedding!!!!! none of this is to ask you to feel sorry for me, i'm just wanted to be able to look back at the end of the semester and see that God has provided me the strength and the hours to get everything done!

we have been having spritiual emphasis services this week. our speaker is mark batterson, pastor of national community church in d.c. they have been great....here are a few of my notes:

• live your life playing offense
• i want to live my life so that its worth telling stories about
• we need to be a genersation that fears missed oportunities rather than our mistakes!
• Jesus wants to make eye contact with me
• God can recomission you
• mark also gave a brand new demension to the story in luke where peter denies Jesus three times. ive heard the story a million times and i had never seen this truth: Peter denies Jesus 3 times and then the rooster crows. have you ever wondered if everytime after, peter heard a rooster crow that he was taken back to that time he denied Christ? Satan wants to program our refexes to dwell on the bad. But Christ recomissioned Peter 3 times in john 21 and he did it in the early morning. (this never dawned on me....) when do roosters crow? in the morning!!! Jesus wants to (He did with peter) recomission us. he wants to reprogram our reflexes. He wants to help us forget our mistakes and move on. this is such a new concept to me and i love it. i never thought about it. it just once again shows me that the Bible is full of new concepts that i have never seen even thought i have heard most of them. God is so amazing!!